Wednesday, January 07, 2009
11:45 PM

it's my 20th birthday today and i was rotting at home till like 2 pm before gg out with my sis to tampines mall to meet my bro for lunch! haha lunch ws nice except for the bake rice it sucked!! haha... anyway after eating we walked around and bought my bro a pants for his birthday and i bought myself a top from espirit and they bought me a cardigan...everything was nice.. my sis even got her team to get a birthday cake for me!! super touched! cos my team didn't even get me anything! but they did sing a birthday song for me lol!! THANX GIRLS!!!

but i was rather disappointed or sad today...b'cos i knew we were playing with a strong team and taht we will lose but they played a good game! all the way girls! the sad part was...IT'S MY BIRTHDAY AND THAT I WAS JUS STANDING THERE WATCHING THEM PLAY WHEN I KNEW I WAS ON TIP TOP FORM TODAY YET HE DIDN'T PUT ME DOWN TO PLAY!!!!
ALL I WANTED IS TO GO DOWN TO PLAY A FEW BALLS AND SHOW HIM THAT I CAN DO IT!!!!!! BUT..............HE DIDN'T EVEN GIVE ME A CHANCE TO PROVE MYSELF!!! AND IT'S MY BIRTHDAY YET I STILL GO DOWN.....AND WAT DID I GET IN RETURN??? NOTHING AT ALL!!!

during the 3rd set i really feel like crying b'cos i felt that i was wasting my birthday!!! where i could at least go out with a few friends for dinner AT LEAST I BET I WILL FEEL BETTER!!! so after the match i changed out of my shoes rather quickly jus to skip the debrief but didn't manage to do that..so after debrief i went to bath straight!!! (but i couldn't hld my tears back anymore so i broke down in the toilet..) =(

when i finish bathing and felt better i went to find my sis and ask their team to take our bus back to AMK cos the bus is like super BIG BUT EMPTY!! so why waste the space!! that was when my sis ask me to go out and have a chat... when she come to me i jus felt like crying b'cos i REALLY THINK THAT I SHOULD GO DOWN TO PLAY cos the other setter was like giving away points where i know i can get it back!! I TOLD MY COACH I WANTED TO PLAY BUT HE IGNORED ME TOTALLY!!!! ASSHOLE!!!!

after everything we went home from TP, my team didn't go for supper so i went with SMU and then cab home... THANK GOD THAT SMU WAS THERE ESP MY SIS.. if not i dunno who to turn to.. THANX JIE FOR BEING THERE TONIGHT!!!! ok i gtg tml still have to work in the morning...and will be gg to NP to play vball cos i dun think i will get a chance to play vball anymore other than sentosa... b'cos my coach dun even take notice of me in the team... all he sees is the other setter! since u like her so much...then dun ask me to go for trg la!!!!

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